Don’t have sex until you’re married.
No, maybe that’s an exaggeration. I would hate to think you might get married out of an impatience to experience sex. In that case, go ahead and do it. But I feel like sex is only OK if its recreational OR if you ARE married. Its so fucking beautiful and spiritual when its with the right person and if you aren’t careful it makes break ups so much harder. I mean think about it. Think about how much you miss someone’s kiss or their hand in yours when they’re gone…but subconsciously, if you’ve made love with them time and time again your body won’t let your heart let go because it understands that connection as something unbreakable something permanent. If its this good it must be sacred. That kind of thing. I mean I’ve had my fair share of fuck buddies and I was experenting with my own body and having fun. I don’t regret it. But in a relationship…I wish I had put us on a “no more sex till you marry me” deal or something. Because sometimes when I miss him I think of the things I trusted him with and how our bodies broke some of their own rules because we trusted each other completely and to think that he will do the same with some other girl in the future or that I will let someone else do the same to me….its so painful and terrifying and it makes me so angry….I still love him to death I would still trust him with every inch of me if I had the chance but I probably never will because he is so over me….
the only card i will ever send
I love this new update
I have to so this on my own. Even tho it goes against every natural urge to seek refuge in a hug or a phone call I must resist and just be there for myself and make mySELF feel worthy and whole
I wake up to a text and just start CRYING….like seriously fucking bawling because I’m too pathetic to resist texting him when it’s the only thing he has asked me to do is to leave him alone. Fuck why am I so dependent and clingy and broken and pathetic pathetic pathetic
Such many feels tonight 😔